On this page, you will find writings and snippets by me, the most recent at the top of the page. ----- I believe that Masters and slaves come to the table as healthy adults with equally important needs. What makes us different from other relationships is that we have a transfer of authority inside a well-defined, agreed upon structure. In such a relationship, the slave is of equal value as a person, but is not of equal status. These relationships can encompass all or part of what I see as my three cornerstones for an Ms relationship: Service, Spirituality and SM. Notice the order; it's intentional, the most important to me being listed first. Also notice that sex is NOT listed. While sex is fun, and I am currently seeking someone who can fulfill this as part of his service,it isn't a necessary part of an Ms relationship for me. Thus, my Household is open to all genders, sexes and sexual orientations. If I feel led to Master someone, the way I build the relationship is simple; I set forth what I want, then I wait for the slave to be ready to surrender each thing to me in their own time. As the slave comes to trust me and surrender their will, the depth of the relationship grows...and it only grows as fast as the slowest partner (because, rest assured, I will have a growth process too!). As the relationship deepens, I wait for the slave to request their collars. I have found that most slaves who are looking for the same relationship fundamentals I am will ask only when they feel they are ready. I accept when I feel that I am ready. ----- My Livejournal ----- I'm published! In March, 2007, Nazca Plains published my book, Manual Creation: Defining the Structure of an Ms Household. I'm thrilled. A non-fiction book isn't what I'd ever expected to publish, but the writing does suit the scientist in me. ----- In December of 2005, I took two brands onto my flesh. Yes, the Master has been branded. I now have two phrases in braille on my forearms. On the left, it says "servant master"; on the right, "warrior priestess". If you'd like to see the process, take a look. Fire's Branding I intend to have them re-done, by my girl anne, at the Women's Butchmanns in August. ----- In December of 2004, I attended Southwest Leather Conference in Phoenix, AZ. That was the beginning of a spiritual journey for me. In 2005, I attended APEX Academy's Butchmanns Experience twice. Butchmanns has been a cornerstone in my self development. It was there that I self-identified as a Master (a gender neutral term in the greater Leather Community). Since SWLC, people have come into my life to play important roles. Situations have manifested that are undeniably learning experiences. It has been and still is hard; looking deep within is not easy. But, I wouldn't undo it, given the chance. ----- My spiritual journey over the last year has been amazing. I have come to identify as a Servant Master: as the slave serves the Master, the Master serves a higher calling. I find that I must have a spiritual component in my committed relationships now; without it, the relationship is "flat". This isn't to say that I don't still enjoy the sensual or SM play, but to say that in order to consider a collar, right now, I need a spiritual component. My spirituality is an eclectic mix of Pagan, Native American and Eastern with a Christian background. I am all, yet not totally any, of these. Basically, I deal with energy; it’s interactions with us and in us. Think Chakra or Chi…then add ritual, ancestors and speaking in tongues. I'm an odd bird, so to speak. I'm intense, smart and deep. That seems to overwhelm a lot of people who talk to me. I have insight that can be creepy...even to me. It's not a consistent thing either, which makes it frustrating. I get nothing from most people, some things from some people and a great deal from people who have special meaning to me and/or my journey. slave girl anne has been one such person. she and I share a connection that is comforting and strengthening to each of us. We met at Butchmanns in January 2005. There, in an odd turn of events, it was decided that the single slaves would be paired up with the single Masters. anne served me that weekend...and we have been connected ever since. The draw of me to her is one of warrior sisters; as women, we nurture, as warriors we fight to heal. I am humbled by her submission to me as much as I am proud to fight beside her. I also I had an intense spiritual encounter in Aug-Sept 2005 with someone who wasn't in the lifestyle. This encounter was a life-altering, but too short, friendship to someone I named Ice. I miss him very much, as we had the potential to be spiritual partners and perhaps more. Ice died on Sept. 28th, 2005. Even though he is gone, this relationship is still teaching me valuable lessons that I need in order to lead the second Ice, whom I met almost one month to the day after the first died. As much as I miss the first, I am awed by the second. I know that I couldn't have changed the outcome of the first's life, but in knowing him until he died, I was given insight into the second. The second Ice, slave jason, is another warrior, but new and, as of yet, untried in many areas. I am proud to lead him and feel contented by his protective service. Cherished Possessions: My slaves are a reflection of me, thus, I want those who are worth owning. Ownership is about empowering the slave to reach their full potential, not about putting the fear of god into them or making them feel worthless. Spirituality is the path that allows us to see and search for this potential. In such as way, the slave grows and appreciates the life given to them. Ruling by fear or humiliation might work for a while, but it doesn't lead to healthy slaves, or a healthy Master, in the long run. I don't necessarily look for perfection in slaves; I look for potential. In order to be a match and fit to serve me, a slave must:
Throwing away the above things for a relationship is going to bring you and me nothing but heartache. In service, you must be allowed to be yourself and to grow inside the role you have chosen. Being a possession doesn't mean you should make yourself into nothing, it means you should make yourself into something worth owning; a Cherished Possession. -----
The " Leather lifestyle" and BDSM were slightly different to me. The difference is subtle. BDSM stands for 'bondage and discipline' , 'dominance and submission' and 'sadism and masochism', things that I do and enjoy. However, the acronym doesn't say anything about having a Leather family, a heritage or a community from which to learn how to run a Leather household. To me, BDSM is a listing of the fetishes that I may or may not do as PART of Leather. The term "Leather lifestyle" encompasses the 'family' for me and this is what I long for and find important. So, I DO BDSM, but I am learning to LIVE a Leather lifestyle. But, it's more trouble than it's worth to change my name. ;-) -----
Tolerance is a big thing for me. When I say, "It isn't all about sex for me" I am merely stating my own opinion and not trying to condemn those who DO choose sex as an integral part of their kink. And hell,, I might be looking for that sex slave too! (of course, sex is just one example of what I mean by tolerance). Learning to accept people as they are is one step closer to learning the "truth" on a Universal plane, to me. However, I freely acknowledge this is sometimes easier said than done. -----
I have always been Dominant, from the time I was little. I can remember being in Girl Scouts...we were doing a puppet show using barnyard animal puppets. The other girls MADE me be Bossy, the Cow. I was hurt, thinking they made me do this because I was overweight, but they reassured me (I think) that it was because I was so bossy, not because I was fat. Things like this kept cropping up throughout my life. I just like being in control. -----
Did you know that there are many cultures that recognize 3rd and 4th genders? In some, they are looked down upon, such as the Hidra in India. But, a lot of cultures accepted these people as important and even supernatural aspects of their life. The Berdache of the Native Americans is the best example I know of. Almost always, 3rd gender applies to men adopting feminine roles while the 4th is women adopting male roles. They may or may not be homosexual (although they usually were). Do some research; it's fascinating. -----
I also believe there are subtle difference between a masochist/Sadist/, a bottom/Top, a submissive/Dominant and slave/Master (Mistress). My interpretation is based on the "The Nine Levels of Submission" originally published by Diane Vera in The Lesbian S/M Safety Manual from Lace/Alyson Press. While I feel no level better than another, I find than I lean towards the later two in relationships that I desire. Does this mean I don't have relationships of the other types? No, it just means that when I am actively seeking, I seek submissives and slaves.
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